So I am going to be honest here and say that I was thinking of getting rid of a lot of the prior posts. I am sure you know which ones they may be but I kind of felt that it was a little petty. Also, what would I gain from doing that. It doesn't change what my life has been up until this point. All of that still happened. I am angry at her and with the situation that we are in but I don't hate her.
I have to say that it is odd being on my own. I don't really remember a time where I lived on my own and had to make decisions that really only affected me. It's amazing how one singular event can bring about such massive change in a person's life. I was thinking of some of these things, mainly going back to school, since before this whole divorce thing started but now I am giving it much more thought. This opens up a whole new set of decisions that revolve around yet another decision. Do I stay down here in South Carolina where I have a good job, that pays well along with getting to set my own schedule or do I move back up to Michigan and become one of the jobless masses. I think the answer to that one is pretty obvious. It is South Carolina for me, at least for the time being.
For school there is only one down here that I would want to attend, at least in Columbia, and that is USC. It's a good school and has great Biology and Ecology programs. I don't know exactly what I would go to school for but I have always considered Wetlands Ecology or Conservation Biology.
Lately I have been contemplating some type of adventure. The need to get away and just do something extremely different from what I am used to. Sort of a mental reset. I don't know what I would do, where I would go, how long this adventure would last. One option, and yes I developed this because of something I saw on TV, would be to volunteer to sail to Antarctica and stop illegal whaling. Yes, this is the time of reality shows and I have watched Whale Wars. If you haven't seen it check it out. It could be and probably would be dangerous but it deals with something that I feel strongly with and that is one of the things these people are looking for. This is just a thought mind you. I have no idea if I am brave enough to take on this type of adventure. And an adventure it would be. Who knows if I even need that much of an adventure, maybe it would be something as simple as getting away form everyone and everything for a week and just camping and hiking by myself. There are plenty of great places I could go to accomplish that. This also sounds like a more reasonable option. I wouldn't have to jeopardize my job by being away so long. Although my friend Katie said she would give up one of her weeks of vacation pay she has saved up for me if I went and she also thinks our boss may be cool with it. I somewhat doubt that.
Alright so those are some of the changes/choices/decisions/thoughts that I am facing right now. Too many things to be doing to be on here typing. More to come.
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